I promised myself that during the month of March I’d finish writing the final section of my book. It summarizes the third and final peace walk I joined: in 1988, 200 Soviets came to walk with 150 Americans in the United States.
It’s an easy topic for me to write about because it was an important experience in my life that has largely shaped the person that I am today, and there are many articles to help me with facts and dates. Still, sometimes I must force myself to write. It’s one thing to report the facts, another to capture the mood, the tensions, the thrills of insight and understanding. I’ve written almost 10,000 words and am not through yet. There is still time, but I struggle with including my feelings, my opinions, my self without thinking that I am inflating my own image in the text. I cringe at that thought.
Luckily, I have a list of feelings and emotion words. I can scan them and come up with vocabulary to express myself in a moment without resorting to happy, sad or mad. I find it interesting that the “Negative Feelings” list is twice as long as the “Positive Feelings” list which is a third longer than the “Miscellaneous Feelings” list. What does this say about us?
I will plod along for now, taking my own advice to write for at least 10 minutes a day and get words on the page, attempting to include all of those positive feelings and less of the negative ones.